no word could describe how mad, pissed, angry, furious, annoyed, livid I AM right now.

I’m so dang mad. I don’t care if everyone hates me now. I really don’t care for I hate them too. 

Just had a big fight with my sister eventhough I threw her my soda I kinda felt guilt but then I’m still mad afterall her counterattack was throwing case of hair treatment which hit my jaw and hit me with a broom. Ugh. really, I’m going crazy!! I also mad with my mother, she’s UNFAIR. damn UNFAIR. >.<

Do you know the feeling when you’re really mad and act like it doesn’t matter and you realized tears overall your face?

P.S My jaw hurts.

Sorry Jesus, I love YOU! :’(

When will be the time I could be in crowd without legs shaking. When will be the time I’ll have the confidence to stand-up and walk straight without minding what people might think. The time when I could wear what I want, say what I want, and do what I want without minding those judgemental bastards. 

you could say out loud that I’m a loner. Here on tumblr and what more in person. I’m socially awkward. Maybe I’m only the one who doesn’t have a bestfriend. I never had since. I wonder how it feels to have someone who will be there for you through thick & thin. I wonder.

I feel like no one cares and no one will. No one wants me. I don’t know. I’ve done everything I could. Maybe I’m really into this, to be alone and to die alone. I knew it. End of story. :|

yes, I am. I really hate where I am now. I want to die yet I want to live. For me, one thing which is difficult to do is living. and I’m thinking of giving up now. :|